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Another Way Creation Groans

Another Way Creation Groans

I feel a sort of protection over the wildlife in my backyard. As a child, I imagined myself to be like a Disney princess, surrounded by wild animals. As an adult, not much has changed. Currently, there’s a mama robin tending to her nest on my house, a few baby squirrels in our pine tree, yellow finches on my bird feeder, and until yesterday, two adorable bunnies grazing on the frosted green grass each morning.

Now there’s only one. We found the other’s remains leftover from the neighborhood stray cat that’s been hanging around.

Nature.

It’s nature, but is it really natural? Death of innocent animals? The cuddly cat that becomes a predator? Hawks that swoop in to steal new life?

I’ve been studying the old story of the first garden where death didn’t exist and God’s creation was untainted. Things were perfect then—they were good then, as God declared (Genesis 1:31).…

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There’s Too Much Sin Here, Lord

There’s Too Much Sin Here, Lord

There’s too much sin here.

It keeps piling up.
It fills in the crevices;
dirties every space up.
With each layer that’s pulled back,
still more to purge.
When freedom is found,
another sin does emerge.

There’s too much sin here, Lord. Too much sin in my heart.

There’s too much struggle here.

Struggles, no fault of my own.
Sins of others,
left me broken in my core.
My mind wrestles with lies,
about things that are good.
Doubting the Creator’s words,
just like Eve would.

There’s too much struggle here, Lord. Where do I start?

There’s too much shame here.

Shame that’s well deserved.
That old serpent reminds me,
of the destruction I earned.
I gave my body to be used,
my soul to be ravished.
But instead of what I deserve,
grace on me you lavished.

There’s too much shame here, Lord. So much shame in my heart.

Sins and struggles,
for the Christian remain.…

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COVID-19 is Destroying My Kingdom

COVID-19 is Destroying My Kingdom

Last week on a video chat with some close friends, I told them I was really thankful to not be one of those popular Christian writers who are expected to speak to cultural issues. “I don’t wanna write about the coronavirus. There are so many articles out there already.” I said.

Famous last words, I guess.

Because just two hours later, I found myself typing away.

That same day, tears filled my eyes while hugging my husband. I was overwhelmed with emotion, partially due to fear and also a burden for those most at risk for mortality. I must admit though, that my sadness had more to do with things of much smaller importance.

I saw my plans slipping from my fingers and it grieved me. My first summer with my baby boy, TGCW20 (a conference for Christian women) with my friends, vacation with my family at the beach. All of it is up in the air and I’m bummed.…

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Worship While You Rock Your Baby

Worship While You Rock Your Baby

I thought about the long list of to do’s written in the margins of my planner—the dishes that needed doing and clothes that needed folding. The toilets were dirty and, oh yeah, I hadn’t read the chapters for Bible study yet.

These tasks flashed into my mind one by one as I wrestled my baby boy into a soothing position in an effort to calm him.

Lately, heading into nap time is like preparing for war. I know he’ll scream, arching his back in protest. So I prepare my mind and heart for action. I know there will come a time where he finally relaxes and gives up the fight, but it’s easy to get flustered and impatient when a baby is screaming in your face.

I remember in the early days of his little life how quickly anger and anxiety would erupt from within as I held my helpless baby in my arms, feeling just as helpless myself.…

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Wanna Be Wise? Be Impartial

Wanna Be Wise? Be Impartial

You know what’s interesting? The two most wise women in my life are the most impartial women I know. They seek out the outsiders. They look to meet the needs of all who surround them, not just those closest to them. 

It’s almost as if James was on to something when he included “impartiality” in his description of true, godly wisdom.

“But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, open to reason, full of mercy and good fruits, impartial and sincere.” James 3:17

When I think about it, truly to be impartial is to be peaceable, pure, gentle, open to reason, full of mercy, and sincere. It’s to pursue peace with all, love others with a pure motive, be gentle in our handling of other people, remain open to hearing perspectives that differ from our own, show mercy to those many may avoid, and love others out of sincerity. …

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Will I Still Sing as Loud?

Will I Still Sing as Loud?

After lying in a dentist chair for three hours, I finally walked to the front desk to check out. What was done was done—no turning back now.

The lady asked a question, and when I heard myself answer—immediate tears. I couldn’t get out of there fast enough.

At thirty years old, I sobbed in my car over the sound of my own voice. While driving home, I tried to sing. More tears! My lisp was so bad I sounded “ridiculousth.” 

“Well, obviously I can’t sing at church anymore.” I thought to myself. No more worship team for this brace-face. I’ve always lifted my voice unashamedly whether in the congregation or while helping to lead them in song, but now I’d decided those days were over. I’ll just quietly sing to myself…

Oh but wait…am I singing to myself or to God? Why the sudden change? Will I allow the alteration of my singing voice to be an excuse for not worshiping with my whole heart?…

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