he has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.” Hebrews 13:5
Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever
situation I am to be content. Philippians 4:11 We all love verses like the ones above don’t we? You have to be content! We hate hearing that. Even that word makes us cringe a little. It’s almost as if we don’t believe it’s even possible. I know I didn’t think so for a long time. But it’s there in scripture, in God’s word which is 100% true. Paul was able to be content in his torture, trial, prison time and even singleness. Therefore, it must be possible. It is, but as Paul also said, only with the strength of Christ(Philippians 4:13.)
Last week marked a year from when I was planning on walking down the aisle to marry whom I thought was going to be my husband. It’s been a year and a half since we broke our engagement. He is now married to another woman. Although this was the most painful heartache I had ever experienced, I am so thankful for it. In the midst of everything I have been able to witness my Lord’s protection and His rich mercy. It has been a season of trial after trial. Just when I thought I was making progress something would open the wound again. But, each time got easier. God heals so wonderfully and perfectly. He has used this time to grow me and draw me to Himself. That being said, I have struggled with believing I could ever be content with singleness. I had this overwhelming desire to be a wife. But God wants our biggest desire to be Him. HE is our husband. He is the only one who can truly satisfy. God has shown me such amazing love and I just want to know and love Him more. Of course, I still want a husband if God wills, but I am no longer consumed by it. Yes, I still get lonely but I have learned to run to my Savior. He is always with me.
So, it dawned on me a couple days ago. I am single and living for Christ and I am HAPPY. I never in a million years thought I would be able to say that. Just a couple months ago I was crying my eyes out begging God for a husband. Now I am able to say thank you to Him for this new season. He is growing me and changing me. It’s amazing what His grace can do to a wretched sinner like me.
So, you’re single? Use this time. Do not waste it! It’s our time to draw near to Jesus and serve others as He served us with His life. Give your life away because you were made for the Maker.(As Lecrae would say) 😉
Your love, O LORD, reaches to the heavens, your faithfulness to the skies. Psalm 36:5